Lol, Lollipop girl.

Beautiful cute rosy cheeks... pretty pink lips... Beautiful eyes... Awesome hat... Cute shirt... Cute nose... Nice hair... What else u want me say huh???

Actin' Cool! Lol! She looks damned cute and funny this way.

Beautiful smile and sweet looking girl and she says hello to me!!! So I say hi back to the most beautiful girl in the world...

One of the things I fear most is losing her to another guy... I cannot believe how many guys are disturbing her nowadays when they JUST realized she is beautiful... I realized it LONG ago and yet so many of them are now blocking me from her.

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I know I sound like an ass here, but what's with all the guys surrounding her???

When I was in form 2 - 3, I didn't see these guys surround her... She always hangs out with girl friends and not guy friends... But now, she is with guys all the time... I really wonder how things have changed... I was kind of the earliest guys to take an interest in her and yet now so many guys are trying to take her...

Yes I AM jealous... I really wonder if I do have a chce 1 day...................................

The Emily saga (Long saga) Always updated when new things happen

When I started loving herrrr

I 1st started being interested Emily when I was around end of form 2 I thk??? Or was it early form 3... I started stalking her stalking her from then on, pretending to look arnd whenever Im around her. This went on throughout the year until January of form 4, I shifted school to a homeschool. ( Special centre)

My methods of stalking her recently

Basically after I went to homeschool, my school starts at 9 AM and ends at 3 PM... So I would visit my old school once in a while in the mornings in hopes of seeing her, but when ppl ask me why Im at the school, I'd tell them I came to train. It is rather true 'cause at homeschool there are no martial arts so I come to school to train with Dharsan aside from coming to school to see her. On special ocassions when my school ended early, I would come to school to see Dharsan, Aidan ect... (Well, while keeping an eye out for her) I'd also go to her house in hope of seeing her... (I know Im abit of a creep for going to her house)

Well, then 1-2 months later I had a privelage of managing to see her when I visited the school...

I saw her in front of the school hall and I said hi to her, while she was talking to her friends... I really couldn't believe she smiled at me, so it made my day.

Then the 2nd time I collided with her was when she was doing her scouts... I said hi to her and she smiled at me... That was one of the only times she really smiled at me at so close, and that was one of my most happy moments...

How she found out I liked her

I got abit too overjoyed after the 2nd time she smiled at me so I did something really stupid. After I added her on facebook, I was really overjoyed and I thked her for the add on the wall and she said "no problem"...

She's a very sweet hearted girl...

Anyway, after I added her, I sent her a private message sayng "thx for smiling at me the other day... I like it when u smile at me"... I didn't really think she read it.

So I shifted back to Emily's school, I did my normal stalking routines. So I stalked her at the library from behind one day (Since she was a library prefect)...

She was sitting right next to a fellow librarian and I sat down looking at her from behind, (as usual) then her friend was constantly staring back at me and whispering something to her and Emily was whispering something to her too... Emily was looking at a mirror, and later on I realized that she was seeing if I was really stalking her... Then all of a sudden, one of Emily's friends (Jia Jun) came and said to me " I like it when you smile at me"...

That gave me a really big shock... She really told every1 what I wrote to her?? Man.................................

I immediately ran out of the library...

How my reputation to her got bad

1) Bad reputation through word of her friends

So 1 or 2 mths after that library incident, I went back to stalking her, even though I knew she was noticing me doing that. I was indirectly telling her I liked her...

Anyway, what happened later on was that on her facebook, I noticed there were dozens of people talking abt me on her page... They were talking about why I liked every of her posts and talking about me stalking her... (Which I did, aside from liking many of her photos)... I didn't say anything at all but I later commented on the conversation when I thought no one was posting anymore on that conversation. I said "At least I dont stalk her at her house... anymore". I deleted the question in a few seconds, but one of Emily's friends, Leonard saw it and started questioning me... Another boy whose name is Kok hong also saw what I said and they both questioned me... I answered them and constantly deleted my answers after they've finished reading them. I told Leonard that the last time I stalked Emily at her hse was when I was form 1... When actually the last time I did it was a few months back. At the end of the argument, I agreed not to disturb emily again with Leonard... But at the same at the end of the argument, I misunderstood Kok Hong and I thought that he was threatening to come to school and beat me up. So I told him that "I didn't want to fight, but if it was unavoidable, meet me at the bus stop"...

Which obviously he didn't 'cause he wasnt even threatening in the first place... Emily saw the argument on her page and asked them to inform her at school abt what I did...

What I am worried is that they might've told her that I was asking to fight him... Which I didn't.... Which would give me a really bad impression to her that I'm a violent bastard... Which I'm not. Martial artists have principles in life, you know.

2) Bad reputation through my own stupid actions

I really got excited over her and wrote all kinds of things on my wall using the initial "E" standing for Emily, which I thought she wouldn't know who it stood for...

Everyday, I'd come back and write things on my facebook wall about how much I missed her during holidays, how much I loved her but I didn't really think that she will figure out that I was talking about her when I use the initial "E". I wrote it all over my wall and it pretty much took up most of the space on my wall.

So she blocked me 'cause of that and because I liked alot of her photos and statuses (According to my conclusion)

How I attempted to get myself back to her

Recently, I created a new account using the name "Noel Chern". I wanted to find out if she forgave me and forgotten about my deeds in the past. I was overly rejoiced when she added me again... I started writing on my wall how happy I was and I said that I was happy thanks to "a beautiful kind young lady that forgave me" etc. It was like the best day of my life to me... She recently came back from Beijing at the time so she posted photos of the trip on her facebook. I "liked" 4 of the photos and started commenting on her photos... Then she blocked me AGAIN.

My conclusion as to why she blocked me was either:

1) She got annoyed with what I wrote about how happy I was that a beautiful young lady forgave me. So she took back her forgiveness.

or

2) She didn't forgive me in the first place, she just added me because she didn't see my name clearly and simply added me.

So that's how I got myself here... With two accounts blocked... And I feel VERY HURT. Some ppl laugh at me that I cried over this matter. Let them laugh... I am just looking for an opportunity to reclaim myself to her... She is special, not like any other girl... I don't know what's special but I just know that she is the most beautiful girl I've seen in my life. And she is very sweet, 'cause even if she disagreed with me, she didn't say it to me for she is too good hearted... I really am glad I came to a school with her... I never had a heart to heart conversation with her before but I know she's special...

Reconcilation

Well her birthday was coming soon in a weeks time, but her birthday was on a holiday, so I had to give it on the last day of school, so I decided to buy her a bracelet worth a few thousand ringgit (at the price of RM 30) from JoonKeong. And so I did... I slipped in a note of apology into the gift... saying I was sorry and I hoped to be frens with her...

So when I was supposed to deliver the present, I felt discouraged cause she was always with that Calvin guy. So I decided to give it to Darshnan to pass it to her.

Later I went back to Joon Keong and told him that I passed it to Dashnan... Joon Keong told me that I should've passed it to her myself because it'd be more sincere... So me and Joon Keong went looking for Darshnan and when we found him, we asked for the present back... He said he gave it already...

So then we found Emily in the library alone so I asked her privately if she recieved a present to confirm it. She said she didn't but I wished her for her birthday anyway.

So now we go looking for Darshnan again and asked him where the present actually was... Since it wasn't with emily. And u know what he said??? "I gave it to Calvin"...

Of all people in the world Darshnan gives it to Calvin... O my goodness... Sometimes he can be very very very daft. Calvin likes em and it's onli common sense that u dont pass to him... And right at that moment calvin came by and Dashnan asked me to right out loud in front of him to ask Calvin back for the present which makes me feel Darshnan is even more stupid.

Then later, Joon Keong told me Calvin passed the present to em...

But the thing that is stupid is... I wish I didnt pass the present to Dashnan but give it to em privately because there was such a big opportunity since she was alone in the library!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Grrrrr I feel so rugi...

But anyway on facebook, I already had an account with then name "Yong Chin Kao Lan" added to her and I changed it back to the name "Noel Chern"... She didn't seem to mind or block me at all even when I like her posts... I m just afraid she will block me again so this time I dont dare comment on anything in her wall...

So on the day before it was her birthday, I waited until 12 AM so I could be the first to wish her for her birthday... I was waiting for this moment the whole day... And I when i checked the clock, I wanted to make sure it was exactly 12 am... But as soon as I post want to post it, Calvin already posted a happy birthday 30 seconds earlier... Then another guy also posted a happy birthday.
So I was the third to wish her... I felt really annoyed that I didn't post it 1 minute earlier or I'd be the first!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Well I guess that's all for now... We'll see how things go on...

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If you're reading this, I want a second chance plz... I will do anything as long as u give me a second chance and unblock me... Im literally begging you... Just tell me what I did wrong...